An Unfinished Puzzle

I have battled a number of health issues throughout my life—all of which I am asked to share whenever I see a new physician or specialist—but there is one section on every form that always gives me pause. In theory, it is the easiest section for me to complete, but emotionally, it serves as a reminder of the losses I have experienced. When I am asked to complete the same forms for my sons, that section becomes a source of guilt for me. Guilt over not knowing what I have passed on genetically to my sons. Guilt over not being able to protect or shield them from the losses I have experienced in life. When I meet with a physician or specialist for the first time, and upon reviewing my health history and lack of family medical history, the response is often the same.